It seems to me that song is kind of simple, but the message I can definitely relate to. Rachel (my roommate...you'll meet her in a bit) and I were discussing this song one night. Now that the skin is on the ground sometimes I'm amazed at the freedom and wonder if I should grab back on just because I'm used to it. But it is for freedom that Christ has set me free. I know struggles are still going to come, but right now it's nice just to be me... joyful and energetic me. I don't know how God works. I couldn't explain to you how He did it, but He has done it.
So, last year I left off living with Kathryn and Heidi:
And then this is what happened this summer (yay! Look at how beautiful she is!):
And now it's Heidi, Rachel and me:
Heidi is the laid-back one out of the three of us. Just a few minutes ago I walked past her in the kitchen... just standing there doing nothing. Sometimes she does that. She says she's deciding what she's going to do next. I'm not sure I believe her. She comes home from school and tells us how she went for a walk in the forest and watched fishes for lab class.
Rachel...well, I never know what's going to happen with her. One day she'll be studying some random thick encyclopedia book on some obsure nursing practice, the next she'll be injecting pears with saline solution, and the next she'll be baking up a storm of fresh home-made bread (where have we heard of home-made bread before?).
It's only been 4 weeks, and we've had more then our share of tears and laughter (and procrastination.... HEIDI). I won't trouble you with the tears part... I think all three of us have learned what prayer means on a deeper level...
I've been leaning on a few deep truths lately that have transformed my frusterated and aching heart:
1. God is good. Since He and His plans are good, I can fully trust Him with my future
2. God is a jealous God. He wants ALL of me
3. God is always with me, and lets me know His presence
It's almost like words can't describe what I mean though. Everyone (including me) has heard those things over and over again. But I think the true understanding comes when they are made so evidently real in a person's life. And I know it's not the last time I am going to come to a full understanding of what those statements mean.
Unfortunately, though, my focus has switched from my own problems to the massive amounts of school work that I need to learn and know. There is a mighty big danger in letting that be my life, be what I live for, instead of living completely and solely for and in Christ. School is insane. We've been dumped in into the deep end and are left to tread water. Which is why I really should be doing my hours of online classes, quizzes, and group work instead of writing a blog. But I really wanted to write a blog.... or go to bed. But it's still warm weather outside which means people are still riding their motorcycles. They tend to rev their bikes right outside our apartment... as if they know we live here and want to wake us up from our sound sleeps. So there's no point in going to bed right now only to be wide awake in half an hour.
For anyone in Calgary who reads this, I'll be in Calgary from Oct 15 to Nov 10ish for a fieldwork placement. I'd definitely be game for getting together with you all!
And I'll end with this and be off:
"And the clouds just parted on a corner of my life/And I can see for miles/And the things I was stuck on/Things I thought would never change/They just broke open wide//This is the one thing I know/You said You won't let me go/You said You won't let me go/You've done a good work in me/and You won't quit 'til I'm free//And the veil just lifted/I can fully understand/The way You work in me/But even if I didn't/You are still a sovereign God/Who has a plan for me//It's good to know You work with hurt and broken souls/That You'll take a soul like mine/In all the world nothing's taken hold of me like Christ/This is the one thing/This is the only thing/This is the one thing/You are the only thing"
1 comment:
Candice,
Its very excitng I finally get to see my picture up in the blogging world. BUt beyond that little self indulgence I want to thank you and your delightful house hold for haveing me over. I also want to thank you and your roomies for the lovely offer of doing my homeowork at your place because its a little more trickey for me to do it at my home. One last thing, I realize after spending more and more time at your apartment I really think you and Heidi are pro start Huggers ( I haven't hugged Rachel yet, she could be a pro hugger too, I just don't know yet!).
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