Tired

This week is a week of mixed feelings and tiredness. *sigh* I've spent alot of time by myself getting life stuff done, and am looking forward to being around people again (and a motivating challenge to the brain without having to work out details of physically living) in the fall. It's true, I do work with people right now, but most of my time is spent by myself watching traffic drive by. I still pray, and I still sing, but this week my mind feels like it's in this vegatative state, like I'm looking out through foggy vision. I miss people... specific people and people in general. I don't think I've ever appreciated smiles (or a reassuring nod when I haven't done things exactly right) from people driving by as much as I did today. Unless they were from guys checking me out. Then I didn't appreciate them at all.

Tomorrow the plan is to work in the rain. That's okay because I really need to get some hours in but it's not okay because it's supposed to rain lots tomorrow. Days like that were okay working at Capernwray because I was loving and serving people. I didn't mind being cold and wet. It's crazy how the context makes so much difference. The context probably isn't supposed to make any difference though as long as I'm where God wants me to be, right? Maybe I need to have an attitude of serving and loving people. The loving attitude is obvious - of course God wants us to have a loving attitude - but it's awfully hard when you don't know how to love the people you're around. Especially on construction sites.

So tonight, I'm going to shower, have a bite to eat, figure out apartment stuff for September, phone a friend if I get to it, and hopefully read my Bible before crashing into bed. Tomorrow will come, and I don't need to think about it right now. But I'm sure thankful the weekend is coming up. Even though I can't really afford a long weekend I am definitely thankful for it!